Sunday, June 17, 2012

some resolutions MUST be broken.

So I got pulled over this last week (who knew there was a rebel in me?! Next time I'll tell you about how I repeatedly swear in my sleep.) It was my third time getting pulled over but it was my first time getting a ticket and the first time that I didn't shake uncontrollably as I handed the officer my registration (but NOT my insurance information because it couldn't be found....ANYWHERE.) It was terrifying. And I'm sorry that I don't really feel guilty about going 16 over in a place where it is clearly a speed-trap. You know, the place by Columbia Elementary? And I'm usually one of those people who is upset because they feel sincerely guilty about what they've done. But I must say, this was one of the first times where I was sad just because of the consequence. Haha oh well!! It was upsetting at the time (and a couple choice words may have exited my mouth) but then I finally got to my destination and my lovely friend Shelby consoled me as tears continued to flow out of my guilty face. And even though I knew I had a $100 ticket to pay in the near future, I just couldn't resist buying a few items when we went shopping. And I feel fully justified in breaking my New Year's Resolution of not buying clothes until the Fall. And we have matching plane outfits for China which is...you know. Freaking awesome.


My ticket to Speedster-ess Row. And my fashionable prisoners' garb.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Summer with a capital S.

I feel like I haven't written about something for awhile. So. I just have random thoughts in my mind I'd like to share with the world, if that's alright. It's Summer! With a capital S. Therefore, my life is just this huge smashing event of delightfulness and I can't just compound it into one thought or one blog post. And I love bulletted lists. Here goes!

- Speaking of bulletted lists. Reason Number 482 that my major is the most incredible and well-suited major for me: I don't have to write a lot of essays. Just bulletted lists of treatment plans for patients. Treatment plans that require me to plan fun activities to help people find happiness in their lives.

- I've been a reading FIEND this summer. I just finished two books recently, East of Eden by John Steinbeck and The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. Both so beautiful and both are very differently written stylistically but so utterly the same in the way that they display the beauty and the ugliness of human-kind. Both peer into the human soul. And I'm not the best writer by any means and a lot of times I hate it (sue me!) but after reading these books I feel words are even more beautiful to me than they were before. And I have these random yet wonderful sentences that come into my mind that I could never compile into a book because I'd never have a patience for it. But anyways. Read these books?

- The Brandon Flowers Station on Pandora is by far the best.

- I like to learn about life. And I have learned a lot this summer. But not a difficult learning, like moving away was. A happy learning. Of course there is struggle but I feel like I can see a broader picture and I LOVE how much I've grown this summer already. I won't go into detail, and if you want I'm inviting you to ask me about it (because I like talking about life and stuffs) but I prayed to Heavenly Father to guide me this summer into preparing me for...so how do I phrase this? This may sound really weird. Ok it WILL sound weird. It is a weird? IT'S WEIRD. Actually let's rewind a little bit. There's this scripture, Alma 37:36, that talks about counseling with God in everything you do because He will guide you and I totally believe that God knows what is best for me and He's my best friend and knows everything about me. Not because He is all-omnipotent but because I tell Him anyway. And God knows that this is important for me to communicate with Him about every little thing because He just knows me and my mind and what I need. So anyways, that's the only way I can explain it. I prayed that God would help prepare me this summer for meeting my future Eternal Companion. Not that I would meet him or whatever but that God would prepare me...because it's a big deal! And I want to grow. It's just been really cool to meet boys (men?) and date and learn about myself and what I want. It's just interesting! So, if you have something in mind or need help with something, anything, even if you feel absolutely ridiculous about it, just ask God. It can turn out pretty nice.

- Driving around and talking is nice. So is riding my bike. And watching trashy tv shows with my best friends (Bachelorette and PLL anyone? Pure delight hahaha.) And visiting friends. Meeting people. Weekly edification at Institute. Watching testimonies grow--including mine. Trying new foods. Reading, reading, reading. Crafting. And camping. Nature in general, really. And growing.